Seeds of Hope
November 9, 2016
It has been a long time since I have updated this blog. However, with the state of the world being what it is I feel like it is time that I planted some hope.
Give me some time to do so, though – today I am going to have to dig really deep to find it.
Today is a dark, dark day. Powers of hate and division seem to be winning around the world.
I have children. I will not lie – I fear for their futures.
What kind of world will this be in a year? In two? Five? Ten? Will there be a world waiting for them when it is their turn to try to make things better?
When I woke up this morning to the “new world order”, I realize that all of this time I have been a terrified observer waiting for the world to stop being such a scary place. I have been avoiding self-care until the election results were in, hoping that once Trump went away I could move forward with a world that once again made sense.
The surprising results of last night’s election have robbed me of that easy answer.
Maybe that isn’t entirely a bad thing.
I have been lost in the media. Ignoring my family and my health instead to watch what has ultimately been a slow-motion train wreck of historical proportions.
The world is not over. Yet I feel lost and without purpose because I had so much riding on things being a way that they simply are not. I am not the only one who feels this way today. There are millions – maybe billions – of people in the world filled with a variety of emotions from dread to frustration to outrage to despair. This is not what we wanted. But this is what we have.
I have woken up from what feels like months in a terrible dream and I realize that all my obsessing has done nothing to make this very real nightmare different or easier.
Instead I realize that I have sacrificed time with my loved ones to read news articles about statistics and political processes that I am not even a part of. I have stopped doing yoga because all my energy has been channelled into worrying. I have avoided meditating because I feel like there isn’t a point until the world becomes safe and understandable.
Reading Huffington Post and FiveThirtyEight for eight hours a day will not change the world. I may feel better “informed”, but I am not a better person.
I am an anxious mess. And nothing is going to make that better except me.
Let’s face it. The world isn’t going to get safer or easier to understand. We are in a time of turmoil and even in the most calm and orderly of historic periods tragedy can strike into individual lives. None of us know what is going to happen. Basing today’s actions on potential future events is not healthy or productive.
I need to turn inward. 2016 may be have been a terrible year in the world, but it has actually been a pretty amazing one for me. I am very blessed. I have a beautiful life.
I am tired of spending all of my energy and focus being afraid for my future when my present is such a gift.
So I have decided to take today’s news as a personal call to action. Instead of investing all of my precious time in worrying about the future, I am instead going to focus on enjoying the present. I am going to focus on the things that matter. That way, even if the end of the world is upon us, I can say without regret that I spent my time wisely.
In the end that is really all that matters.
In life our greatest gift is time. None of us knows how much time we have left. Every moment we waste worrying about what is going to happen robs us of our most precious commodity.
My plan is to tune-out and ignore the media, at least for a while. I have proven to myself that being heavily invested in their noise does not help when the s*** hits the fan. At least by avoiding the daily messages of doom and gloom I can focus on my life and the things that matter.
Things I want to focus on – mindfulness and compassionate acts.
Mindfulness is powerful. It allows you a more authentic life. It creates an environment of peace around you.
Compassionate acts in your daily life are a political act – never think that they are not. We have the power to do small things with great love. Those actions can change the world. If nothing else, they can make the immediate world a better place for the people you love.
I really do believe that the world will get through this. I believe that we will look back at this in years to come as a sad and defining moment, but we will look back at it. Nothing gives me more hope than our children. Despite the path that the world is on now, in just a couple of decades we will be handing over the reins to a generation of global citizens. Our children are our beckoning light. We just have to make it through this very dismal tunnel first.